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A Very Long Newsletter 8 (Read The Sections Which Interest You) :
The Concept of "Selling Out", "The Secret", Polygamous Relationships, How To Keep Fit, How Old Are You? The Numbers Debate, "College Degree Vs. None" Discussions, Your Emails and My Responses
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Book Project Update and the concept of "Selling Out":
I've completed the 1st draft and printed out all 1400 pages of it. Now I can take it outside Yay! and edit it via hard copy as opposed to being on this macbook 17 hours a day. Oik.
My investor and team of advisers have suggested that perhaps I could split it up into 7/8 mini books to make it more understandable and readable. Like Harry Potter, Star Wars, or Lord of the Rings. I have thought about this idea and am still considering it. But the thing is, my project is all connected and I don't like putting it out in sections just for the sake of extra sales or "easierness". The bible is over 10,000 pages. It is best fully absorbed as it is, not in little segments. What is "easy" isn't always what is Best/most Effective. Segments are what TV shows are good for. (Which I eventually will make). And I intend this book project to be made into a movie which I will modify a screenplay for, direct, produce, and also star in. Everything is linked, and unless it is in full form, it is not a full representation of what messages I'm putting out into the biosphere. Tolkien (author of LOTR) also hated the idea his editor had, but he still came out with 3 books instead of 1 massive one. It is ironic, this conflict of ideals within the business world with art. For a long time I refused to let anyone see my work, because I didn't want to sell it or have it be commercialized in any way. Haha many of you "artists" out there I'm sure feel me on that. But also I find this mentality a bit closed-minded. The "sell-out" concept is far too simplistic. If Einstein never published his theories, modern science and medicine would not be benefiting from his mind. If Shakespeare became a hermit and hid his work from everyone, high schools would be at loss with What The Hell Are We Gonna Do A Play About Now? If Martin Luther King decided to keep his "I have a dream" notion to himself, the fight for racial equality would not have been so successful. If J.K Rowling decided to keep Harry Potter locked in her mind, or R.L Stein didn't publish Goosebumps, millions of school children worldwide would have lost the interest to read. If Benjamin Franklin decided to keep his invention to himself, we wouldn't have light to illuminate our dark nights. If Bill Gates kept Microsoft to himself, and Steve Jobbs kept Apple to himself, none of you would be able to read emails, save time by typing vs. handwriting, or browse through the monumental free search information network: the internet. Now I see the whole bohemian fear of "Selling Out" from a different perspective. If I publish it, a bigger audience will be able to see, benefit, and enjoy my ideas and inventions. Before I did my work for myself alone, and now I also do it for others who find faith and inspiration from my work. As Nelly Furtado has said in her
song "On The Radio (Remember The Days)"
You liked me till' you heard my shit on the radio
Well I hate to say but pop aint' going solo
You liked me till' you heard my shit on the radio
But now I'm just too mainstream for you, oh no
You liked me till' you seen me on your t.v.
Well if you're so low below then why you watching
You say good things come to those who wait
Well I've been waiting a long time for it
[Chorus:]
I remember the days when I was so eager to satisfy you
And be less then I was just to prove I could walk beside you
Now that I've flown away I see you've chosen to stay behind me
And still you curse the day I decided to stay true to myself
You say your quest is to bring it higher
Well I never seen change without a fire
But from your mouth I have seen a lot of burning
But underneath I think it's a lot of yearning
Your face, the colours change from green to yellow
To the point where you can't even say hello
You tell me you'd kill me if I ever snob you out
Like that's what you'd expect from me, like that's what I'm about
[Chorus]
[Bridge:]
It's so much easier to stay down there guaranteeing you're cool
Than to sit up here exposing myself trying to break through
Than to burn in the spotlight, turn in the spitfire
Scream without making a sound, be up here and not look down
because we're all afraid of heights
[Chorus]
Why ya hurt me hurt me hurt me hurt me hurt me hurt me so so,
leave me down down down down low leave me down da down down da down da down down down...shit on the radio... shit on the radio... shit on the radio... shit on the radio"
Jennifer Lopez's wise words, "don't be fooled by the rocks that I got. I'm still Jenny From The Block." and Will.i.Am of the Black Eyed Peas "Celebrity-Shmembrity. It don't mean nothin. What matters is your heart."
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"When you're rich, people don't view you as weird. They see you as Eccentric."
Well people, my dear readers...
I'm rich.
I can use myself as proof of how a dreamer can succeed, as I have achieved much of my dreams despite the odds and people's doubts. I used historical examples to back up my case while I was working hard to achieve my goals and would have liked support and belief from people and my family, but nobody listened. Only now, they are all turning their heads and smiling for me, saying that they are "proud" of me. When all I heard growing up was how much of a failure I was (not based on my achievements, but simply because I was different, and because I didn't do the things that most other kids did). Regardless, I succeeded. And I haven't stopped. I will keep going, keep dreaming, keep achieving, and keep believing and helping in my visions and those of others. And Yes, I am one in a million, I am one of those examples who made it out of incredible odds against them. I graduated high school in 3 years, ahead of my class. I was offered to do a PhD at age 19. I have 3 agencies which sponsor my various acting, modeling, and art pursuits. I make more money in 1 hour than most people make in a week. I have found infinite love. I have done more than most have done in a lifetime. I will be CEO of the greatest company ever to be created by age 25. I am "special" . I am what is considered a genius, an exception to the rule. But before all this, I was Always Doubted. You can do what I do, and what others have done.
Success Stories:
Bill Gates. (a college drop-out) -inventor of Microsoft
Richard Branson (no college degree) - CEO of Virgin Records
Robert Kiyosaki (degree, but unemployed for 9 years before he became rich) - Inventor of "Cashflow: The Game", Author of "Rich Dad Poor Dad"
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Committed relationships open to polygamy.
Monogamy is One-Dimensional.
That's it. I'll write on this in my next issue. Stay tuned.
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The Secret (Recently one of the co-authors of this book which has sold 1.6 million copies since December 2006), was on Campbell Live, a New Zealand Talk/News show. The dynamic between John Campbell and the metaphysicist/spiritual healer was not effective in answering questions either side of an argument would have. The metaphysicist was unable to be in the mentality of Mr. Campbell, consequently the majority populace. It was like watching one person question someone in French, and get a response back in Japanese.
I have been explaining points found in the secret to people since I was 10, far before The Secret was officially released, far before I ever heard of what it was, or how to even describe what I knew. And this information, isn't privy to only me. It has been around as long as the universe existed. Whatever form it comes thru, whether thru the Bible, the Quran, Martin Luther King, Ghandi, Mother Theresa, Richard Branson, Britney Spears (yes Britney Spears), Michael Jackson, Kahlil Gibran, Kazi Nazrul Islam, Herman Hesse, Nietzsche, so many others, the message has been around for Eons. That You Can Do Whatever You Dream. I'm glad The Secret has come out. And I'm glad that people have responded to it. It will greatly help the audience market for my book, release date this year 2007. As my book, covers many topics and similar things which The Secret describes. But my book, in addition, has a mega-load of information which takes The Secret to a whole new level. My book is not The Secret. But if you liked The Secret, you'll like my book. My book has 100 "The Secret's in it. Plus artworks, poetry, scientific calculations, theories, answers to pretty much Every Area of Life. From the normal, like, Family, Friends, Love Advice, to "so.....was it the chicken....or the egg??" to "what is the best recipe for food which tastes good, is gourmet, and I can cook in less than 15 mins. ?" More , much more, my dear people, is in my book. Enough of That for now, you'll all read it soon enough. Now.... back to "The Secret"...
I hope to enlighten some points on "The Secret" in what follows:
Ok, so basically what The Secret is about is, you can do whatever you want, have whatever you want, and no matter how broke you are or how horrible of a circumstance you are in, you can "think" your way thru it, and create the life you imagine. You are the Sole Master of Your Destiny, of Your Life, of Everything and Anything that happens to you. Because there is nothing which "happens" to you. You are the one who Makes these things happen, through your subconscious and conscious thoughts.
To all the skeptics, or for anyone who finds this concept a bit too idealistic or just plain weird/hippyish to believe literally, I'll give some examples.
The Law Of Attraction: That whatever you think, will happen. That a Thought, becomes ... A Thing. A thought, becomes an Action.
You think about money, it will come to you.
But oppositely if you think you have money problems, thats exactly what will happen.
The Holocaust:
6 million people were gassed. Most people will say, ok, well they didn't ask for this, they didn't think "yes. please kill and torture me just because I'm a Jew".
Well.. heres the thing.
Why The Holocaust is such a monumental moment in history is because so many people died. And Death is Perceived as a Negative Thing. If you thought death was a Good Thing, you wouldn't think the Holocaust was a bad event.
For example, over 6 million new people are Born every day. Life, begins. But nobody celebrates or acknowledges that. People tend to pay attention to things that are negative more than things that are positive.
Now, another question arises, ok , but the Holocaust wasn't just bad because people died, it was bad also because of the Way which they died, and the reasons for Why they died.
Well that brings up two other points:
Reason
Justification
Reason and justice are both things which the human mind has invented. They don't exist. They are based on perception. Just because an Action happens, there is no natural law which makes it any one thing. A tree falls in the forest. Is that good or bad? Now, the same tree we just talked about has fallen on a beaver's nest, making it difficult for the beaver to gather food, and therefore survive. Now is the tree falling a "bad" thing? Think about it. Its the exact same action. A tree falls. Humans adapt things like consequence and judgment to actions in the world, which helps them to understand the otherwise extreme complexity which surrounds them. The universe is a very complex place. But further study of quantum physics will actually show you, that in its complexity, it is essentially Simple.
A tree Falls.
A leaf Blooms.
A person Dies.
A person Lives.
A person Kills another person.
A person Eats.
These are all actions.
What we think is "good" or "bad" is only our own arrogance and ignorance of the "bigger" picture.
A boy hits a grandma on her head and robs her wallet. The grandma's daughter avenges her by killing the boy. Is justice served? Some would say so. But the fact remains that all that happened was an Action-the boy robbing the grandma, and this Action is immediately labeled and judged as being either a "good" or "bad" thing. If it is a "bad" thing, the person who committed this "bad thing", must be punished. If the person does a "good" thing, they must be rewarded. Generally people want to pass judgment, because they feel it makes the world a safer and more peaceful place. Without law, there would be chaos, and so forth. And what decides what is law? Usually moral questions of what is right and wrong, good and bad. What is ineffective about this type of thinking is that instead of people genuinely wanting to live in a society where they love their fellow neighbor, they begin to do things because they feel forced to. In other words, a person will not steal, not because they believe it is Bad, but because it is Against the Law. This same mentality can be found in many devout biblical followers. That they begin to be nice to people because of a Fear of God, as opposed to a genuine Love of Man. I discussed this issue in my previous newsletter, which I received some interesting responses to. Scroll down to read the email exchange between Fred Stiplex and myself.
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Fitness:
How do i keep my fit body? (And by the way... To see more photos of...My Body and Me...see my modeling portfolio slideshow on www.lilianaalam.com or any of my websites listed at the end of every newsletter and/or email I send to you. One of my strengths in all that I do, for example: modeling, is my Versatility. I have been Every Look, Every "Type" and find great discovery in being a wide range of people and personalities in my shoots. I do my own makeup, hair, etc. as so far no artist can even come close to competing with me or measuring up to my standards. With Versatility, and Why I experiment with so many various physical appearances, It offers as H.Marko would say "a different perspective, like seeing through different colour lenses." How do all the different people in the world see it? And how do others see them? Spend 1 day as a skinny person, and 1 day as a fat person and you'll see the difference in how you are treated.
There's been suggestion for a www.liliananude.com.....HAHAHAHAHHA. Yeah. U Wish. I do, do artful style nudes and many experimental/extreme shoots but they won't be released to the public until a much later date of my journey. Some other fun stuff I might like to do would be: to be a Victoria's Secret Angel, be in Playboy, FHM, Vanity Fair, Artistic Nude Photography Magazines, Etc. For all business/ modeling/art/photography/etc. booking enquiries email nosfereinsteon314@gmail.com)
I eat whatever I want, whenever I want, but drink green tea, water, take fish oil (omega 3), b-vitamin complex, and I do at least 1 strenuous physical activity e.g something which makes me sweat profusely per day. (this can be anything from running, cycling, swimming, playing a sport, combat training, running around the apartment/house, jumping up and down while cooking, sit ups while watching tv, anything that works your body to the point where you feel nauseous. Make sure to go past your physical limitations. Don't stop when it hurts. Stop at least 10 minutes later. ) Sex is a supplement, not a substitute for exercise, so it doesn't count people!
With regards to eating, although I do eat whatever I want, I eat only when I'm hungry, and I don't overeat. I listen to my body, to my liver, to my stomach, and I sense the internal messages within myself. I eat bread, but I eat whole-grain, I used all types of fatty sauces, but every meal I eat is balanced. For example, I'll cook fried onions w/garlic (garlic is a natural carcinogen-meaning it prevents cancer, finely chop garlic right before you cook it must be fresh, then fry it in a pan w/olive oil as a first step to anything you do in the kitchen), a rich tomato sauce with a pesto and olive oil base, and I'll put in cream cheese, butter, and ranch dressing. But, I add lemon juice (this helps your body digest and decompress fatty acids and allows you to cleanse yourself of toxins which otherwise would be absorbed immediately and stored as Fat.) I eat bagels with cream cheese and butter, but I'll occasionally put on smoked salmon pieces (fish-omega oil-improves mental clarity, helps you lose weight, rids body of toxins-so you'll "poop") and tomato slices (tomatoes are an excellent source of all around vitamins. Whatever you're eating, pop a tomato or a sliced onion in there. You'll already be doing wonders for your body.) The key is always, for me, Balance. Not moderation, but Balance. Eat as much as you want, what you want, but balance it with something that is truly healthy for you. Mix a carrot into your daily milkshake smoothie. Drink 2 glasses of water for every soda. (Although I personally don't drink soda. I prefer plain old solid Water.) I know best, how my body works, and this method has worked for me to lose weight, to keep fit, and maintain a healthy fitness & strength level for all the things which I do, some of which include strenuous and extreme martial arts, dance, combat training, yoga, etc.
I also invented my own fitness programme, ( I lost 15 lbs. -ok i was never fat but at one point I wasn't totally fit either-, and toned my body thru this last year... a lot of very overweight people benefited from my program- think of a better version of Pilates in combination with Tae-bo) soon to be available on my website for the public.
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THE NUMBERS DEBATE. HOW OLD ARE YOU? REALLY............
Ok, so when you're born are you 0, or 1?
Yeah that is a confusing system , it could go endlessly in debate i guess.
i mean... the start of the universe, when is that? humans
don't even know when it started, and what is the definition of
"beginning"? is that when the first atom merged with another? or is
that just when "nothingness" became "something?", but what is
"something" and what is "nothing"?
And with birth, confusing, because, as the fetus forms, lets say the
term of embryo , already equates life, so technically, when i was
born, wouldn't that already make me 9 months old? and, if you
consider, that the actual conception which happened, the "Sex" already
started my life, and it takes about a month to develop, isn't THAT the
start of my life? but also, since i'm made from a mom and a dad, and they
are both a certain age, within sperm and egg, doesn't your age also
effect my age, collectively? i mean, if you look at the human race as
a whole, and consider genetic progression in that sense... the first
human was technically 9 months old.
but that was 4.5 billion years ago. so now... that means that we are
alll...AT LEAST.. 4.5 billion years old. Which would explain how much
smarter and taller, and etc. we are. Its not attributing to our
individual genetic history, rather a collective history, of our entire
human species. so those who have had large families, are the oldest,
and sometimes wisest, because wisdom is smartness, is progression
genetically speaking of the human species. ........
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Two Debates on College Degree Vs. No College Degree in Life Security. E.g "good job, good family, good life, good money". Recently, this debate occurred between A-a dreamer and B-a person who lives in what is known as "the real world"
Dreamer A believes that security, great achievement, and riches can be achieved without a degree, and with belief in dreams. Person B disagrees, and aims to have a life full of happiness, but with realistic success in terms of a steady job, steady income, happy family, and savings enough to retire and be able to travel. Person B feels that Dreamer A lives in a fantasy world, and needs to be more logical and realistic. The people's names and personal details have been omitted for their security and protection. Both each An interesting conversation to say the least:
Enjoy! let me know what you all think:
CONVERSATION 1: Dreamer A, Person 1
Person 1: so junior. what have you achieved?"
including your failures and triumphs
cuz from where i'm standing ur broke
Dreamer A: but content
Person 1: i don't give a shit about your contentment. i need to know that you can support ur wife and your child
and not have to be on welfare
and can afford the luxuries in life
Dreamer A: your not your fucking clothes, or your car, or your MONEY
Person 1: don't u talk to me like that junior. u shut ur mouth. i'm your father.
Dreamer A: a MAN is only judged on how much he can achieve in this world
Person 1: u live in a fantasy world
what have u achieved junior?
Dreamer A: it's all a fantasy world
Person 1: no . You're the fantasy world
you and your ideas.
ha! ideas!
money doesn't come from ideas!
you'll be broke forever
Dreamer A: actually.....
Person 1: and i dont want to have an unhappy and broke son
Dreamer A: ALL MONEY CAME FROM AN IDEA
Person 1: you shame the family boy
Dreamer A: MONEY IT SELF WAS AN idea
Person 1: yeah. i don't believe that. thats bullshit.
it doesn't matter what you say . you still have no income.
and a wife
Dreamer A: people have great ideas, that leads them to money and power
Person 1: yes, but how do they get there?
with degrees
and small steps
u talk about greatness, and u dont even have any money!
Dreamer A: e=mc2
a poor man came up with that
Person 1: if u haven't succeeded by this age, how will u be able to succeed in the future?
yes. and einstein died poor.
he never made that much money.
he was a genius. but a poor genius
Dreamer A: i would just be graduating college in a year rom now
if i went to college
Person 1: and thank god boy. that would mean u have a guaranteed job
and achieved nothing
people dont want to hire someone like u with great ideas and no degree
Dreamer A: i still have a guaranteed jiob
JOB SECURITY
Person 1: yeah, doing what? janitor work?
Dreamer A: you can not get FIRED form the military
Person 1: i don't expect u you to do great things. i'm perfectly happpy with the basic things in life. i just need to know that my beloved son is taken care of.
Dreamer A; now, THAT"s job security
Person 1: the military is not a good job
that is dangerous son.
Dreamer A: it's better than most
Person 1: why can't u just go to college, and get a job, and buy a house?
Dreamer A: Yeah and waste away in a little office
Person 1: you don't waste away in an office
since you're such a genius, that should be easy for you
Dreamer A: doing a meaningless thing
Person 1: oh i see, so i'm a waste?
i love my job!
i have a happy life!
i make money
Dreamer A: DO YOU REALLY?
Person 1: and i have a good time
yes. i do.
as for you,
but have you lived your life?
you are what society calls a loser
Dreamer A: what do you mean have i lived my life?
Person 1: again, with your philosophy
Dreamer A: you can have all the money in the world, but it will not buy you experience or true love
or any such thing that is TRULY valuable
it will buy you NOTHING
that you can take with you
Person 1: yes. i have true love.
i am married.
i love my wife
and i can provide for her
which shows my care
you however, can't.
so how much do you really love your wife, as you can't provide for her?
Dreamer A: marriage is a partnershio
this is not the 50's
Person 1: yes. based on real things.
we provide for each other
my wife has a career too. but it is my responsibility as a man, to provide.
she provides too.
i agree with you about partnership
but, we both are college graduates
we have Guaranteed jobs for the rest of our lives!
you don't!
even with all of your big ideas!
Dreamer A: will they ask you how many degrees you have when you die?
Person 1: no. but they will when i live.
and actually you're being contradictive.
first you say a man is measured by what he achieves
Dreamer A: yes
Person 1: then you blame me for having actually having measurable achievements
Dreamer A:NOT BULLSHIT PAPERWORK
like ..A Degree
Person 1: please watch your tone
Dreamer A: what he achieves in life
Person 1: That "bullshit paperwork",
Dreamer A; how he raises his children
Person 1: provides me this computer,
which i can talk to you with
Dreamer A: how he treats his fellow man
Person 1: it pays rent,
it pays mortgage,
it pays for my wife's cosmetic things, and what she likes
it pays for my car
Dreamer A: and thats the endless RAT race
Person 1: it pays for my spirituality and my vacations
i agree with you about the rat race. i have seen this, and i live in this.
i do wish there was a way i could not have to be in it.
but i live in the Real World.
Dreamer A: that's a shame
doing the SAME thing everyday
Person 1: you can dream, but i know how reality works
it is great that you dream.
Dreamer A: it must tedious
Person 1: but i only wish that you have some income to provide for yourself to sustain your creative lifestyle
i like my life.
i have an income
just because i do the same thing every day doesn't mean it is boring for me.
it pays rent and the bills
I like what I do.
what is your income?
your actual income
after taxes
Dreamer A: unemployment
1400 a month
that's more that what most people make
Person 1: ah i see. so you use taxpayers money, people who actually WORK hard for a living, to fund your "ideas"
that is a horrible thing
you are using people like me,
to live.
you are a parasite of society
Dreamer A: I EARNED that money
how have you earned that money?
4 years in the military
Person 1: where do you think welfare comes from little boy?
Dreamer Al i paid more taxes than most people
Person 1: It comes from My pocket!
Dreamer A: i call it my severance pay
Person 1: I am a grown man. I am your father. And your disrespect for me is appalling.
Dreamer A: YOUR RICH
Person I: I raised you and fed you and loved you.
Dreamer A: YOU PAY LESS TAXES
you were never there dad
so quit with the bullshit
i became a man all by my self
Person 1: I was very well there. I may not have given you all of my time, because I was busy Working, to provide for you.
Dreamer A: without your help
Person 1: I show my love in practical ways
not with these emails which you send to me
Dreamer A: cars and clothes
Person 1: A Man?
Dreamer A: yeah
Person 1: you call yourself a man?
You are a boy
Dreamer A: i've accomplished more things than any man twice my age
i grew up and matured
and not by choice
only be necessity
Person 1: Oh wow. yes, that is good. I do agree. I have learned a lot from you. I can see you are very intelligent, bright, passionate, and a nice person.
But you are still living like a child.
With all your maturity, you still have no steady security
Do you understand what I am telling you boy?
Dreamer A: yeah
Person 1: What is it that you've "accomplished"?
Dreamer: but i'll manage
Person 1: i haven't seen any of these accomplishments
Son! I dont want you to "manage"!
I want you to be able to afford the things you like, and live a happy, good , life!
you are my son!
I love you!
Dreamer A: there is nothing easy in this life
Person 1: And what worries me also, is that, if you don't succeed, you will come running back to me.
And I am not a very rich person.
it all requires hard work and sacrifice
I have money, and I work hard for it.
Dreamer A: and at the end it will all pay off
Person 1: But if you fail, son, life doesn't always become what we plan. What happens if you fail?
You'll ask me for help!
And I may not be able to give it to you
I will want to, but son I am not a rich man.
I am a hard-working, honest person who wants to be happy
Dreamer A: that's why i never really plan. I just go and do it.
Person 1: Why do you have to make it so hard for yourself?
You have everything it takes to have many doors open to you
I am trying to understand and accept you,
because it is necessary
but why do you need to do things this hard way
why don't you go to college?
please. just for me.
Dreamer A: i do NOT want he easy route
Person 1: only 4 years.
and then you're free!
Dreamer A: that's what your dad says?
Person 1: you know your grandfather was a strong man. But I went to college for myself.
I came from a very poor background.
You know that.
I made my way through working hard.
Not dreaming like you do.
why, when you have this amazing opportunity, which so many would love, why are you not taking it?
you could get a degree, people will understand what you are saying then.
Dreamer A: people will understand soon enough
Person 1: Son. Honestly. tell me, how are your finances
You have said that I wasn't there for you. But I was son. You were always loved. You chose this way for yourself. It could have been easier for you.
Dreamer A: easy is not the way
i don't want things handed to me on a silver platter and not know what sacrifice and hard work and long hours are
i wanna be one of the "people"
i wanna know what they go through
THAT makes a great leader
Person 1: Why?
why do you want these things?
Dreamer A: a leader for the people
Person 1: i dont expect them of you
nobody expects this from you
Dreamer A; like King Arthur
Person 1: just be a good person !
Dreamer A; i'm already a good person
Person 1: well, we could talk all day about historical examples. but those cases are one in a million.
you are not King Arthur
And you don't have to be!
a good person who lives off of taxpayer money?
that is not a good person
that is a thief
Dreamer A: THIEF??
Person 1: Yes. You live off of other people's money.
Dreamer A: thief are the multi million dollars corporation that feed of the misfortune and misery of the people
THOSE ARE THIEFS
Person 1: and how is what you do so different?
Dreamer A: severance pay
its pretty much
Person 1: ? Please explain to me once more
Dreamer A: half the money i paid
in taxes being in the military
i only get ten grand
for 6 months
and then, it's no more
goodnight dad
i need some rest
it is almost 2am here
Person 1: Alright son.
i love you
CONVERSATION 2: DREAMER B, PERSON 2
Person 2
I think, the main problem for you is that it's difficult for you to be
accepted in the ordinary world because you will be judged by ordinary
people and by their standards, and that includes me. I am trying to step out
from my ordinary box and see the bigger picture in you, trying to
understand what I cannot see and trying to accept and appreciate everything
who you are, even when I don't understand.
In ordinary world people are judged by what they have achieved in
understandable way: like, finished university, have good grades, got good
job, make good money, have good family, participate and give to community,
etc. There are certain expectations for certain age. For example, nobody
expects you to conquer the world by age 25, but you would be considered an
achiever if you have finished college, got a good job, became stable
emotionally and independent financially. In some countries you would be
expected to have family and children by that time, but in America you can
wait until late 30s and still be pretty much on schedule. If you didn't get
a family by 45, then the train is gone (for a girl), probably will be no
kids anymore and that would be looked by the society as a missed avenue for
you.
I don't mean talking about you in particular. It's just any society and
people who are part of it, have certain stereotypes, rules, expectations,
etc. It's not bad by itself, because it does raise the board, sets certain
goals and stimulates people. Otherwise, it can be very confusing for young
mind to find out what to do. In general, it's well known that good education
opens door to good job and opportunities. Lots of teenagers don't even know
yet what they will be, but at least they know that they need to get good
education for the start and take it from there.
So, from general ordinary point of view, very few people can appreciate or
understand your pass now because it doesn't go in the usual logical way for
success. There is no question that the odds for success would have been
better in this world if you worked your way in the expected way, but you
chose a different way, which is hard to understand for most people and
that's why it will be difficult for you to be accepted by ordinary people.
Since you are very talented, I believe, that you will be able to achieve
what you want, but you chose more difficult and complicated way when you had
the free ticket in your hands. Many people would not understand why you
would not do what would make sense to them, like finish university, stay
close to your family, etc. Me and your dad and your whole family around the
world are ordinary people and have been confused by certain actions you took
because from our stand point they are not logical. As much as I myself don't
always understand what you do and probably don't see things the way you do,
I am accepting them and support you as long as I feel that what you do makes
you happy and doesn't hurt you. I cannot share your vision because I am an
ordinary person and don't see things happening in the way which is out of
ordinary, but I respect and admire you that you have guts to go your own
more difficult way, which probably will not work for most ordinary people,
but, I hope, will work for you. Regardless of how you will make, if at the
end of it you still will be that stable, financially secured, independent
and happy healthy person, then ordinary people will accept you too, because
they can understand and appreciate that result, but they still probably
would never understand how you pulled it through.
Anyway, I am in full support for you and your talents. I think you have
lots of great talents and abilities, which are the beautiful gifts and very
precious. You have many open roads in front of you. As long as whatever you
do makes you happy, I will be happy for you. (It would be great to make
right choices all the times, but we often don't know what is right until
thereafter. Even when we truly believe that we are making the right choice
at the moment, we still make mistakes). Who am I to judge you! I am a human
being and made lots of mistakes in my life. I don't have answers for
everything. I do have my opinions, but who said that I am right?!
I have to go to sleep now.
I love you,
mama
Dreamer B:
a note about the ordinary people thing...
i do match the standards that most people equate with success, or at least i will by the end of this year
and in general, i don't seek approval from people
there are many people who are "not ordinary" who are very thankful for what i do and who i am
and.. what i do, helps ordinary people as well. although i don't consider anyone ordinary or non-ordinary
Person 2: you are lucky to have them around!
Dreamer B; there are many in this world, who have pushed boundaries, and have pushed the world into progress
these people were people like me
people like richard branson, da vinci, einstein
nobody understood them either
but now people benefit from their inventions and methods of thought
Person 2: i am glad that you are not looking for approval
Dreamer B: in practical terms
i know who and what i am, and i understand people most people don't get it. and i don't need them to. i'm more than enough secure with myself.
i won't stop what i do just because someone doesn't like me or understand me.
cuz i've seen, how much i help people, who don't understand me
and even if they don't know that i'm the one thats helping them , their lives have been changed, for the better, because of me
as to .... whatever happens in the future.. in many ways, i already am where i want to be
i am a success already.
being able to live, as who i am, and in accordance with what i think, is success for me.
i have many goals and things which i aspire to do,
but i'm not in limbo land, waiting to become something else.
i already am who i want to be
and i already have what i want, and live how i want
Person 2: that's wonderful!
Dreamer B: i am very thankful for how much you try to understand me, and how difficult it must be,
and that you do it out of love
i appreciate your love and support
Person 2: and that's why I am happy for you!
this is the best thing which can happen to anybody-to be satisfied and happy with who you are!
Dreamer B: =0)
Person 2: I cannot wish for anything better for my child!
Dreamer B: here is something which might explain some ideas i have for my school, there is already something like it out there:
www.ramtha.com
check it out. make sure to read the part about how their average student populace: most have college or post-grad degrees, but make less than $20K, due to choice, because they move away from city populated areas to pursue peace and enlightenment.
in response to your previous comment:
It's just any society and
> people who are part of it, have certain stereotypes, rules, expectations,
> etc. It's not bad by itself, because it does raise the board, sets certain
> goals and stimulates people.
yes. it stimulates people to achieve mediocrity, and to settle for a
life which has already been lived by so many before them. to reach for
such average goals is fine, but it is sad, when so many, could achieve
so much more.
why make only "good money" when you could be a millionaire?
why have a "good job" when you could start a company that actually
creates even more Great jobs for people, and for yourself?
why only "help community" when you can help the world?
why "stay close to family", when you can be close to the world?
all these things are great starting points. you could say, until u
make money first, how can u become a millionaire?
until u have one good job, how can u be ceo?
until u know ur family, how will u know the world?
and all this is both true and not true. success and vision, is not
climbing the ladder. that is what most people choose to do , and they
are ceo's or whatever, if they have those dreams, at age 50.
Alexander, the great, ruled the entire european empire by age 25. do
you think that if he decided to go the standard route and become a
married blacksmith (common for people back then) the world would have
grown as much as it did because of his genius? no. it would have
stayed the same. success, average success, mediocre success, such as
being a lawyer, or a doctor, or a scientist, is usually achievable
through standard means, by age 35/40.
infinite success, as in establishing a worldwide company that feeds
millions, like Virgin records, or Bill Gates's Microsoft, are never
started with small goals and ideas. Bill gates is a college dropout
did u know that? einstein flunked high school.
greatness and great success, are usually not achieved by going the simple route.
most truly great figures throughout history, have always had the most
non-conformative lives. read their bios! i do!
achieving these simple targets, does not require that much effort,
which is why so many do it. but why not dream bigger? i haven't chosen
a harder path, i have chosen the only path which for me is
challenging. it is much harder for me to aim for small goals and
settle for an average life. i know i have the option, and if i fail my
dream at like 50, i'll go to uni. although, i doubt that, as i will
keep trying, even if i do fail. i'll die trying. i don't like to live
without challenge. my happiness is through challenge, through
achievement, through big dreams. i could right now get a university
degree, make a good income, and have a stable marriage. but i don't
want to settle for that, when i know i am capable of so much more. I
know how much i can help people. i already am! and i have! i have
already done what most people don't do in their entire lifetimes.
the world doesn't grow or change by mediocrity.
it changes with boldness and genius, and the people with visions who
shape the world.
if columbus had decided that he wanted to finish university, get
married, and have a great job and make good money,
nobody would even be living in america.
all people are necessary for this world to work.
and there is nothing less about being a doctor than there is about
being a dreamer. they are both equal, in what the world needs.
this is just who i am, i am a visionary. you are a doctor.
we need both.
i love you,
in practical terms:
emotional stability-in a committed relationship for 3 years
financial stability-professionally sponsored by an investor (in a business arrangement which i wrote a business proposal for).
my financial backup, after this sponsorship finishes, is
modeling, acting.
to give example, as a model, my rate, standard, is $150 per hour. that's more than a certified lawyer makes.
(most models make way higher, but i'm a beginner. to give examples,
supermodels make about $20 grand per day) and you better believe that i'm gonna make that much too! i'll keep dreaming and achieving to reach my goals!
if i have 4 days of work per week, at 5 hours a day, that is more than
enough to survive.
when i get older and won't be able to do this anymore as a backup,
i will have freelance writing as a backup.
people have offered to pay me for my essays, however i never took up the offer.
I have investments, stock, bonds, and a savings account. I'm smart about money, and I make a lot of it with very little. And the surest way to ensure financial security is to start my own company, which I am in the process of doing. And plus, my company is gonna be the first of its kind to not take advantage of people.
have u read My bio?
its on www.breakfree2energy.blogspot.com
you could say achievement, like measurable things that i have achieved:
graduating high school. not only that, but early and ahead of my class
meeting the standard of what equates "genius" -this can count as a
money-making thing, as no company would want to hire an idiot
making money with my pursuits
for example: acting-paid to be on tv
music-paid to perform
modeling-paid to model
etc.
there are more things, which u can ask me about.
i love to talk to u!
it really helps me greatly to understand what you think, what u feel,
and how other people like you feel and think. i'm not comparing you to
other people, you are your own person, i am just saying, that , it
helps and i'm thankful for it.
so please, keep telling me, how other people perceive me. including
family, people, etc. i think i have a pretty good idea, but i
always like to know more.
i love you,
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Don't Like Me? Hate Me? I don't really give a shit either way! Why don't you send me an email? I get plenty of fan mail and hate mail. Maybe you'll be featured in my newsletter email section of STUPID PEOPLE:
(Or if its a collaborative email of thought-sharing, maybe you'll be featured in my GENIUSES section)
This STUPID PEOPLE Issue Features: Fred Stiplex of Wellington:
(He starts off fine for the first few emails, then he just gets STUPIDER AND STUPIDER. Sad. So Sad. Please, Observe...)
On 4/15/07, Fred Stiplex < timefo*********@****.com> wrote:
Liliana,
Mmmmm. One of your last newsletters contained horrible,
negative and
immature comments, as did your reply to my email regarding
your
singing idea with the band. Regardless of the all the great
things
you
have to said, I can't take you seriously anymore. Do you
understand
the mixed messages you send?
Fred
On 4/15/07, TheAnomalyInfinite a.k.a Liliana Alam
<nosfereinsteon314@gmail.com> wrote:
Hi Fred,
1. mixed messages i do understand. that is who i am. i am a
multi-version of many a thing. whilst many people are one
stereotype,
i am no stereotype.
2. YOU were the one who asked me to be in your band, (and as you know I already have a band, but still I gave my time to you) and i felt
i expressed a genuine interest and response. it seems you are the
one
who lacked serious direction. please do though enlighten me as
to what
comments i have said in response to singing for your band you
found
"immature, horrible, and negative."
i can't say it bothers me that you "can't take me seriously
anymore",
rather that your comment is interesting and amusing, and fairly
predictable.
so... i don't know how you will respond to this, seeing as you
feel
that i give off mixed messages and so forth, but love to you,
and may
you continue to progress in the way you want to.
Va Savoir,
Liliana Alam a.k.a TheAnomalyInfinite
On 4/16/07, Fred Stiplex < timefo*********@****.com>wrote:
Come on Liliana, talking about murdering children and
cats?? Saying
(to me) "i'm gonna kill everybody one day?" This is all meant so
people can see who you really are?? What, a sadistic killer? A
multi
version of many things?
You seem to live this persona through internet and emails. I have
come
across people like you before, and I too find it all very
interesting,
amusing and predictable.
I genuinely wish you the very best and hope you keep inspiring
people
with your more positive and enlightening messages.
Fred.
"Don't walk in front of me...I may not follow.
Don't walk behind me...I may not lead.
Just walk beside me and be my friend" - Anon
On 4/16/07, TheAnomalyInfinite a.k.a Liliana Alam
<nosfereinsteon314@gmail.com > wrote:
Hans-do you understand the meaning of a "joke", "rant", and "when
you
take life too seriously, it ceases to be funny." i'm sure you at
some
point or another were upset /angry/found something hilarious or
annoying. does that mean, that this is ALL THAT YOU ARE? no.
i am not like "any other people you have met."
i understand that you don't know me. so i wish you well. please
refrain from making judgments about things which you don't know the
full story about.
thank you for your well wishing.
On 4/16/07, Fred Stiplex < timefo*********@****.com> wrote:
Well what a great sense of humour you have! I don't believe you.
That's
complete BS. You are just covering your foolishness. If you don't
like me
making judgments about you (rather hypocritical for you to say I might
add)
, then don't encourage it. You are full of condractions - on one hand
you
commented on foul-mouthed parents then you use expletives all through
your
rant! What's the joke there? It really did show your immaturity
Liliana.
It was just a shame to see you rant like that after coming across as
someone
with such positive and inspiring messages for people. Those things
blew me
away and was awesome to read. The world needs more of the positive and
encouraging messages and less thoughts of pain and hate. If being
multi-facted to this extent is indeed who you are, then fine, but
don't be
confused or surprised by the repsonses you get.
I actually think that the reason you do these newsletters is to get as
much
response as possible from as many people as possible. You want to push
all
the buttons you can.
You're no enigma to me.
Peace and love
Fred
On 4/16/07, TheAnomalyInfinite a.k.a Liliana Alam
< nosfereinsteon314@gmail.com> wrote:
Well Hello Fred!
I'm not confused or surprised by the messages I receive. And Thank
You, For telling me what the world really needs. Oh, Yeah, Also, for
telling me, who I am, and stating what I am. Thanks, It how can I
say.. Really Helped, Because you see I have No Idea Who I Am, so I
depend on down-to-earth people like you to enlighten me.
I don't believe I ever once stated to you that I want you to think of
me as an enigma, or non. You drew that conclusion yourself, and seeing
as it is You, and not Me, who is so affected by what I write and/or
what I do, please, for your sake, I ask you to stop.
Glad You Think All I Want To Do Is Push People's Buttons. That makes
me so happy, because well what can I say, It's True! You really do
know me! Out of Curiosity, How many do you have? Are they blue, pink,
polka-dotted? Wow. That's Cool.
I'll be sure to keep on being as contradictive, retarded, and any
other thing which frustrates you as possible to annoy and piss you off
even more! You probably won't take my aforementioned advice, and will
keep on doing this to yourself. Make sure that you proudly proclaim to
the next lunatic you encounter, such as myself, (as your girlfriend
enlightened me as well. I feel So Loved! Wow!), that you think they
are full of bullshit. They Definitely Need It!
And I hope it comforts you to know, that I, the Bullshitter, Make More
Money Than You, Do Whatever I want Whenever I want, Have Wonderful
Friends, Have Enemies, Have Helped people across the globe some who
thank me regularly for Changing Their Lives, Have the Eternal Love of
the most Amazing man on the planet, A Slammin' (yes, that is the
expression people say about me, wow really? damn i feel so special!,
hmmm.. I wonder....) Body, Am simultaneously Enlightened and Idiotic,
Can Tie a cherry stem with my tongue in 30 seconds, and Did I mention
I'm Rich? Oh Dear, Was That Redundant? Woops. This email was fun to
write. Thank you for Giving me this Grand Opportunity.
In the words of the emperor of us all who perhaps would think I was a
pathetic fan, but thats Ok (its ok, its ok, my mommy likes me.
waaaaaaaaa. ok, ok, just don't them see you vulnerable) because you
see Hans, I am so Inspired by his Devine Message, which is:
"I Am Whatever You Say I Am, If I Wasn't, Then Why Would I Say I Am?"-
His Holiness, the Great Eminem
Love Oh Yes Love, Hate, Monkeys, Peace, Thinks that say Oink!, Chicken
Grease And Fairies,
Liliana "The Foolish, Definitely Non Enigma Who I Don't Believe",
According To Wise Fred
On 4/16/07, TheAnomalyInfinite a.k.a Liliana Alam
<nosfereinsteon314@gmail.com> wrote:
oooooo I almost forgot!
Damn, man, it f